Did I say it already?

Really? Did I say it already? I'm going to write again. And hopefully through writing, i can improve my English. hehehe. Some people said my English is quite bad. Not sucks, just not up to the expectation. I understand their point. They want me to be better. Well, growing up in a very 'Malay' surrounding didn't help much with my English. Furthermore, my parents didn't speak English at all at home. However, I think all of us (my siblings) turned out quite ok, I think.

There's one time, I still remember how my dad tried his best to converse in English with my ex-boss. Hahaha. I salute you Ayah! My ex-boss is a mix, Cindian. Hmm.. I don't know how he end up looked like Mat Salleh. So I invited my boss and our client from Zurich to come over to my house (in Penang of course) for Hari Raya. And they came. Ayah tried to converse with them and it was so funny. I had fun. I'm sure Ayah was very nervous at first, but he managed it well. We had Nasi Briyani (home-cooked by Ayah) and of course the in-famous pineapple tart prepare by me.

What's my point here? Owh, Ok. What I'm trying to say is, if Ayah can try his best at his age, why can't I do it. The only thing standing in between is only yourself. If you want to make it happen, Insya-Allah, it will. Chayuk Chayuk!! Insya Allah. Ameen.

With or Without You

Woah.. My last post was about How-Betty-Inspires-Me. Well. She did in a way. I moved on. And while stepping forward, couple of things happened and I think it's about time i share it with you.

I always use this blog to express myself. Some way, some how, i'm hoping this would continue more on regular basis compare to what i'm having now. I only writes when i feel sad. I should share more, I think. So we could inspire others as well.

Some one told me I will only be a friend of other person if they could benefits me. Hahaha. First time I heard that. I've been called a lot of names before, but never that. Is it really true? To all my friends, let me know if you think it's true. I know this person for almost 7 years and in the end, this person said that kind of thing to me. 7 years ended in just a split seconds.

No matter how much you value somebody in your life, never try to buy them with money. You might just lose everything. I care a lot about this person. Seriously. But there are times I need to get out from certain pressure, I need to just be a friend and instead of trying to understand, this person just shuts everything. Including me. Part of it might be my fault, my temper, my moodiness and my attitude. But ending everything that we have in 7 years and labeling me with that kind of remarks really makes me feel as if there's nothing real.

Then I realized something, a friend usually stick around and if you are doing something wrong they just smack you on ur head and say wake up! Well, that's my definition of friend and I think I've made a good choice in letting go a few people in my life who were not worth to be around me. Not because I hate them or I hold any grudge against them, simply because I deserve better. Sorry for saying this, but I'm hoping to be a better person without you. Yes, without you.

Ugly Betty

I watched Betty recently and how she's dealing with goodbye. Betty is a character where she believes there's always hope and somehow things will turn around for everybody. and i believe her. Seeing how much she endure from Wilhemina Slatter just to write her own piece of thoughts inspires me. Nothing in this world come so easily. if it is, you'll be luckiest person i guess. coz as far as i cud remember, i have to earn every single thing in my life. you can't expect people to accept you just because they have to. you have to work it out, put some efforts just to be around with the people you love and like. and maybe, they'll love you back. maybe? sounds so negative. okay, definitely they'll love you back if you make efforts to do the same.

a friend of mine recently asked me why i never introduce him to my friends or family even though we are really close. before this i did wonder why i never do that. and now i know why. usually, i treat people with the same kind of treatment that i want people to treat me. you know, what goes around comes around. and i believe it. so if i've been treated badly, i dont give a damn of what happened to u. u see, coz when i like u as my friend, i usually dont mind putting up with u. of coz i will expect u to at least say hi occasionally and maybe hang out once a while. coz i know all of us has our own business and part of it would be being with each other.

i can't imagine how a person could live alone without their friends and family. or how could a person expect everybody to take care of them when they dont even bother about others. it's not something that just happened. it something u can choose. u choose to be happy when u wake up from ur sleep or u can choose to frown. u choose to be strong when u face any obstacles in life or u can choose to give up. same as friends, u can choose to be around them and take care of each other or u can choose to be alone and miserable. well, i supposed u can choose which person that u can ignore oso. heheh.

to all my super gorgeous friends, lydia, ain, awe, xue, mynah, ecah, esni, apap, arul and the rest of the gang.. which too many to mention here.. thanks so much for putting up with me and my bestfriend: moodiness/temper. hahaha. to my beloved super duper family, mak ayah, linda, ida, ikmal.. owh plus alin, bear and the rest of the clan, thanks for always being there for me. especially when i go wacko and over emo. heheh.. u r guys are the best.

to betty.. you inspire me! :)